Reality Behind Semantics

 The war of words will be a bit quieter after this Tuesday when Americans choose this nation’s direction for the next four years. In the last analysis, people will vote according to their personal world view, believing and hoping that their electoral two cents will make a difference for the better.  

 I need to share my own story with you. This incident really occured as written and it has deeply and permanently shaped my own world view.

I walked into the nurses’ station just after 11:00 p.m.  I was a “float” nurse, assigned where needed in our city’s second largest hospital.  Paula (name changed), the older nurse in charge on this gynecological unit, told me to pass medications for all the patients except for the girl in room S60.

“She’s having a saline abortion.” Paula informed me as if that explained everything.

“I’m not familiar with that procedure,” I managed to croak as my stomach sank. 

 Paula explained: “The amniotic fluid is removed and replaced by saline.  This kills the fetus and contractions are induced to expel the uterine contents.  I don’t want to prolong her labor with narcotic medication, so that’s why I don’t want you to medicate her.”

I took a deep breath. Oh Paula, there is no way I could go into that room anyway.

As I answered call lights, passed medication, and made the usual nursing assessments, the cries from the girl in S60 struck like daggers into my heart.  “Mommy! Mommy!” she screamed at intervals that grew closer and closer.  How old is she, I wondered.  I could feel death stalking the hospital unit, serenaded by the pitiful cries of a young girl. Then there was silence. Paula walked out of S60 carrying a white plastic bucket and entered the utility room.

Like a predator, I waited for Paula to leave the room and turn the corner.  I entered and took the bucket down from the shelf.  With a deep breath, I lifted the lid and looked in.  There, lying on its side was a perfectly formed, ever so tiny infant with black hair. Little legs curled up as if he or she were only asleep.  Tiny hands and fingers lay unmoving.  My eyes filled with tears and it felt as if even the walls surrounding me vibrated against an unspeakable evil. 

I returned the bucket to the shelf and went into the rest room and sobbed.  After a while I gathered myself together and finished that busy shift.

I have never forgotten that night. The image of that dead infant, that little person with a life denied, sears my mind every time someone tries to give me a good reason why abortion should be legal.



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9 Responses to Reality Behind Semantics

  1. Sherrie says:

    Thank you Sue, for opening the eyes of so many with this powerful testimony. The thought that a precious life could end in a bucket grieves this momma’s heart. It challenges me to speak out to defend those who cannot. Would you mind if I shared this on my blog?
    Love you lady,

  2. I have a friend who volunteered in a crisis pregnancy clinic that had bought a building formerly an abortion clinic. They had left one exam room unchanged so they could show it to women still trying to decide between abortion and having the baby–and from what she told me, it was terrifying. Not just because of the reasons you so clearly state about those perfect little lives, but because it isn’t regulated AT ALL and so is often unsanitary and barbaric. But I loved hearing her stories about those women who showed up thinking it was still an abortion clinic…and had a bit of a surprise!

    • susan says:

      WOW! Thank you for sharing, Roseanna. It’s amazing how a woman will choose life when she sees the reality behind the lies. That’s why seeing the ultrasound image of the baby is so powerful.

  3. Dina says:

    This is so powerful Sue- thank you for sharing this experience. “And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.” Rev 12:11

  4. Hi Sue–

    I’ve read this before, of course–but I just want to tell you that this has never lost its power in the re-telling! It moves me to tears every time! I also want to give a wave to friends from the ACFW loop– Roseanna and Dina.

    Thanks for following the lead of the Holy Spirit, Sue!

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